perhaps i was just confused [open]

[*{ william]

*{ tansy p a w }*

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so she had made some mistakes in her life, wasn't to say that she was all bad, right? just a bad step, or a bad heartbreak. perhaps she had fallen for the wrong guy and gotten her heart shatterred into a thousand peices when his mate joined the clan. just maybe. maybe there was still a chance that flamepaw could have that everlasting crush on her, one she had been to foolish to acknowledge, and to dumb to acknowledge it.

tansypaw was a quiet cat, she was smart and kind, but she wasn't strong, she wasn't a fighter. she was a past reader, or rather, she was simply willing to accept that title. flamepaw, her best friend, had been present at the birth of her and her siblings, drip-paw, hazlepaw, and stormpaw. his own foster mother had been killed by hers. it was a miracle flamepaw hadn't killed her and her mother before grace had allowed her to be born. she was by far the most lovely of the litter.

the fae child was coloured by striking paints of brown, white, and russet, blending together in a mess that was called calico. a pattern which was seen rather often, though; not quite as breathtaking as her own shades and grace were. her orbs, rare and indistinct, were of an amazing sapphire level of blue, almost a dragon blue. she seemed perfect on the outside, minus the small flaws like battle scars and self inflicted wounds of confusion and anger.

but in all truth...she wasn't perfect. she had made the fatal mistake of falling for the deputy, and current leader, abyss. perhaps it was the fact that he was exotic, from far away places, he was a cat that could offer her adventure and affection with just a hint of danger. yes...in all truth he was perfect, not her, not a little orphan child. in fact, flamepaw was the only one who ahd ever forgiven her for her mother's crimes. she had plenty of friends, but none she felt truly close too.

life just wasn't going her way. in fact you could say it was spiriling down hill, and out of control. spinning her at unimaginable speeds until she was left alone, desolate, questioning everything she had ever believed in. behind her she heard footsteps, or rather; felt them through the small vibrations in the ground. "hello? who's there?" she asked, her voice dead, nothing like the melody of excitement it had once been

CREDIT ! MICHAELA ?! OF BLANK PAGES
OOC ! wow...that didn't make me wanna puke my guts. surprisingly. this is my first ever female cat post so don't be too harsh, lol. yes, yes, i adopted this cat from ali, or rather i'm borrowing her for a grand scheme.
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His ginger pelt ruffled as small snowflakes fell
gently to the ground. His green eyes stare on as if a murder had just taken place before his very eyes."Me..." His tone was bold and filled with the proud personality he had however he spoke softly. He saw the way the she-cat looked at their leader. He wanted to tell her otherwise. He had forgiven her for her family's past incidents he wouldn't let one crush get to him. He had been through a lot worse and this was nothing in comparison and nothing to get angry about.

"You came back...most of the clan thought you wouldn't... He shuffled his front paws and danced from his hind legs to his front ones in balance.How badly did he want to blurt out his opinion."I see the way you look at him Tansypaw....He has four kits and a mate you know..." He wasn't snappy. Just honest. He worked hard to establish the friendship he had with her. He didn't want to lose her to a bloodclan tom.

[*{ william]

*{ tansy p a w }*

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he had come to correct her than? to tell her she was wrong for loving the leader of riverclan. loved was a large word, one she wasn't fully prepared to use yet. especially not towards abyss. abyss was a good guy, perfect for anybody else, but not for her. she tilted her head up pridefully. she hated it when people seemed to correct her.

than again, flamepaw wasn't correcting her, he had started talking to her. that was a start. me... it was funny how warm she felt inside when she heard his voice, memories rushed to the surface of all the times they had snuck out of camp when she was still a kit. she was his favorite, after all.

"hello flamepaw," she said curtly. it was impolite to not say hello, after all. she faked a smiled, hiding her confusion behind a blank stare, one she knew he'd be able to see right through. "i am aware," she added in a slightly darker voice. she didn't like abyss's mate, Frostmoon. the girl had waltzed into her clan with kits, who she claimed belonged to abyss. the brute tansypaw had been head over heels for.

she forced herself to hold flamepaw's gaze, finding herself grower more and more anxious with each passing moment. of course she had come home, she told herself it was for her clan that she returned, but was it really? was the reason she had come home not because of the fox coloured boy before her?

CREDIT ! MICHAELA ?! OF BLANK PAGES
OOC ! it was a terrible post, sorry..
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