*{ can seance's cause frosts? {alicyn}

[*{ william]

*{ winter f r o s t }*
*{ can seance's cause frosts?

winterfrost sighed as he passed through the entrance to the bramble coated entrance of the camp. his fox-coloured figure cast a shadow across the ground as he walked, the sun setting behind him. he smiled, his features lit up as he experienced complete freedom. the moor. his paws threaded through strings and strings of dieing golden grass. soon the ground would be no more than a few patches of clover and some dirt. dirt, such an ugly word, an ugly feature. he hated it. he hated the way it felt when it ran threw his paws, coated his claws.

his tail lashed furiously as he thought about the thing he hated the most, aside from his parents. ignorant, he thought shaking his head, bringing it up only to come face to face with perhaps the only cat around that truly understood him. her name was seance, she was a lively fae, one he was glad he had come into contact with while exploring the outskirts of his territory. he hid a smile as he examined her graceful posture and organized habits.

she was beautiful, he had to admit, for a cat coming from where she did. he could only imagine how wonderful the life she had led must of been, but than again...she came here. gave up royalty, loner ways, to be a member of windclan, for what? him? true he had asked it of the fawn, on the edge of his territory. meetings had occured between them several times over the course of three moons, ones in which they expresses their hate of their lives, and their dreams for something better.

he supposed he had fallen in love with the ex-loner. his clan mate. the one he shared his heart and soul with only to have her grow further and further away from him and closer to that...apprentice! yes, that's where the problem was. he was jealous. of her apprentice. they got to spend time together without suspicion, but if he enterred the picture rumours flew. after all, why would he take interest in seance if not to take her for a mate?

his eyes glazed over, their amber coating turning a misty watery silver and he slowly realized that he had been crying. weeping perhaps. that was a strange event for him, he never cried, or complained, and yet...here he was. acting a fool in the middle of the moor, staring at the girl he had previously trusted with his life...and now he just didn't know. he didn't know what to do, or how to do it. without her...his life was meaningless, she had become his everything when she had joined the clan.

"seance!" he choked, hoping his voice carried to her across the wind-laden land. naturally she would hear him, she had sharp hearing. something he had always admired about her, that and her extreme boldness. her bravery. she was by far the most amazing child he knew.

*{ winter f r o s t }*
*{ yes, i'd say they can.

NOTes: none
FORMATcredit: william archer
TAg: seance

[*(SHADE)*]

seance
Baby now that we're alone, got a request
Would you make me number one on your playlist?

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The she cat looked in the direction the voice had come from. it was him. him. the boy that had brought her here. the boy that had granted her freedom. she stared at him for a minute, determining whether or not she should approach him and talk to him or pretend she hadn't heard him. they had grown distant and she didn't know if they could ever be friends again. a sad smile played on her lips and she allowed a soft sigh to escape between clenched teeth. winterfrost she thought to herself. how she longed to run to him and tell him how sorry she was for everything, but...she couldn't she had a life outside of him now. she had a clan to take care of, she had duties to serve, mistakes to fix. he was her one great mistake and she loved him for it. yes, she had fallen in love with him three moons ago when he asked her to come here, to live in his home land. she had given up everything gladly, determined to make him happy however he could. he had been the only light she could see in the shroud of darkness. why? why had she given him up? why had she let him grow so distant?

She heard the slight cracking in his voice as he choked out her name. it was a familiar sound to her, he had come to her about everything and now would be no different. oh, and how she wanted to help him. she wanted to with every fiber of her being. she walked towards him, her graceful paws carrying her at a quick pace until at last she stood by his side. just like the old days, huh? she touched her nose to his cheek, breathing in the scent she had missed so much in the moons that only served to part them further. this time she wouldn't let him sway her the way he had before, there would be no love...and that was a lie. she had always been in love with him. he had always been who she was meant to be with, they were so perfect together. even now, as his fox colored fur melded with that of her ebony she saw perfection. but than again, she saw perfection in everything he did.

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T A G: winterfrost
N O T E S:
C R E D I T: Bphoenix of BLANKPAGES

[*{ william]

*{ winter f r o s t }*
*{ can seance's cause frosts?

he felt his heart speed to an unnatural speed as she approached. he hadn't untended to call out to her as he had...as he had so many times before. she had made him well after months of depression, sure he said it was his sister that helped him...but was that true? wasn't it her that had been with him everytime he had cried? everytime he had wished to end his own life? it had been her ebony fur that had comforted him to sleep, her scent that had made him feel safe.

she had done so much only for him to tear up their realationship. he was a screw up. he always would be. she had made him feel better than that, like he had a place, and was welcome. he buried his face in her fur instinctively, as he had so many times before. he felt the emotions he had kept burried for so long coming to the surface. she was alluring, a mystery he could never explain.

"i'm sorry," he whisperred, his lips close to her ears, watching them prick as they heard the distinct sounds. what did he have to be sorry for, you ask? so much. he couldn't begin to explain. he was sorry for falling for her, he was sorry for bringing her here and locking her in iron shackles, he was sorry for ruining her hope in everything. he had crushed her and built her back up, just to crush her again. he was surprised she was still alive, if he had taken such mental abuse he had no doubt that he'd be dead and burried.

she would've left at his vigil he was certain, if he had been blessed with death. while he watched from above, she would've been happy and developed such a strong love for another that even the memory of him couldn't break it...as it had with her apprentice, and dear lucien.

she held his attention, even when she didn't speak. he openly admitted she was what he dreamt about more times than not, he would openly admit that she was the one he wanted when he had a night-terror. she was all he had ever wanted in life, and he was picky. he was so very very picky. and needy...so very very needy. and yet...she had managed to keep all his negativity at bay, she had managed to quench the ever lasting anger he had harborred for years before meeting her.

she was his angel, in every sense of the word. she was his everything, and he would do everything in his power to protect her. and make sure she was happy, no matter what damage it caused him.

*{ winter f r o s t }*
*{ yes, i'd say they can.

NOTes: got alittle emotional...sorry. lol.
FORMATcredit: william archer
TAg: seance

[*(SHADE)*]

seance
Baby now that we're alone, got a request
Would you make me number one on your playlist?

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There was a pause between them as she let what he had said sink in. "you dont need to be," she surpressed the urge to shudder as she felt him whisper next to her, as she heard him breath. that was what she had missed, just being able to spend time with him and feel as if everything were okay. as if the world were a beautiful place when in fact it wasn't. "i don't want you to be," she repeated in a barely audible voice that sounded more like a gasp. she ran her tongue over his left ear as she had many times before. i love you, she thought to herself as she looked him, transfixed by the pure beauty he displayed.

She took in a shudderring breath as she felt herself slip into a realm where she allowed herself to cry. one of the few times. sure, she had shed reflex tears, and tears of sorrow, but she had never cried in his presence as she did now. he opened her up, chiselled the ice of her frost-bitten heart. she couldn't bring herself to tell him how she felt, she denied it so many times and kept it burried...but she loved him, more than anything. he was the one that had finally opened her eyes.

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T A G: winterfrost
N O T E S: yeah, me to.
C R E D I T: Bphoenix of BLANKPAGES

[*{ william]

*{ winter f r o s t }*
*{ can seance's cause frosts?

girls. they confused him. they fascinated him. and all at once they really pissed him off. his mind did flips as he tried to imagine what she was thinking, how she was feeling. was it possible that they could be feeling the same way? the she could love him back and maybe even forgive him for his past crimes? everything he had done to her...how could she forgive him? she was merciful...but he wasn't sure if she could go that far.

"but..." he began, staring at her, looking into her emerald depths and losing his train of thought. perhaps he was meant to be here, it would explain the everlasting feeling of deja vue. the feeling that he had done this and been here. he was meant to be here. oh how easy it would of been to turn away and pretend she never existed...easy! he told himself that, knowing that the moment he turned around he'd long to come back, he'd feel his heart shatter into a thousand peices he wouldn't be able to glue back together without her.

"seance," he tried again to put his emotions into words. "i..." he let the thought die stillborn. she didn't deserve to have him ruin her life again. she didn't deserve to hear his feelings, and he was unworthy of admitting them. she deserved better than some...sickly abused cat who barely managed to wake up in the morning.

he shudderred as her tongue ran over his ear, affection warming his body, emmitting from his heart until it reached the tip of his tail. just tell her already! his concience spat commands at him, compelling him into obeying, and still was bit his tongue until it bled. he bit his lower lip when he could no longer hold his grasp on his tongue.

he touched his nose to hers, trying to find some way to communicate the words he so desperately needed to share, the three words he had never before been able to say. the three words he feared he would never be able to say to this she-cat, and if it wasn't her it'd be no one.

*{ winter f r o s t }*
*{ yes, i'd say they can.

NOTes: hmm that's how i acted when i first told you i loved you.
FORMATcredit: william archer
TAg: seance

[*(SHADE)*]

seance
Baby now that we're alone, got a request
Would you make me number one on your playlist?

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The way he stutterred and tripped over his words made her smile. he was obviously trying to say something similiar to the "i love you" she had been afraid to utter before...for fear of rejection, for fear of his denial. true they had spent many a time together but never officially mates, or mates-in-waiting. he had never said he loved her, she had never said she loved him. they probably would never be the cute couple with two point five children and the bramble bush den. they didn't have potential...but than again...

She had left her coven for him. she had left her family, he friends. she had abanndonned everything for him and she had tried her hardest to make him feel at him and comfortable whereever he went. where he went...she went...where she went...he went. he showed her affection, he did. he showed her love she had never been shown before and she loved it. she adored him and everylittle thing he did. she loved him, his very presence. "i love you," she whisperred, hoping he had heard for she feared she would never repeat it.

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T A G: winterfrost
N O T E S: i remember, it was adorable.
C R E D I T: Bphoenix of BLANKPAGES

[*{ william]

*{ winter f r o s t }*
*{ can seance's cause frosts?

there it was. the icebreaker. the one thing he had longed to hear for so many moons. that simple i love you had done more for him than moons of herbs. it had stopped his heart made him open his eyes and realize that she was perfect. she was elegant. and above all she was his. not his property, no, he'd never treat her like that, he swore right than and there, but his. she had his heart, she had it so completely and totally from day on of their friendship.

nothing had changed. minus his perspective on things. he had been in love, now he was head over heels, and believe me, there is a difference. his heart raced, thunderring in his ears, blocking out any doubts or coherent thought in his mind. he loved her, that was all that mattered. and she loved him. there was nothing else. love was all that matterred in the end.

"seance," he said in a lighter tone, one full of life, reviving him from his previous state of deathlike slumber. "i love you too." he had earlier swallowed the tangy blood that had filled his mouth after the shredding of his tongue, and now regretted it as the horrible aftertaste followed.

but the discomfort was soon forgotten. he dropped his gaze momentarily, and realized he missed her already and turned back to face her. "but i've made to many mistakes, i can't stay." those words hurt him more than anything. he knew he was making a mistake but that didn't stop him from making it.

*{ winter f r o s t }*
*{ yes, i'd say they can.

NOTes: ily.
FORMATcredit: william archer
TAg: seance

[*(SHADE)*]

seance
Baby now that we're alone, got a request
Would you make me number one on your playlist?

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She sighed sadly. how could he just leave like that? was it something she said, something she'd done? "but," her voice cracked and she closed her mouth immediatly. she wasn't going to look a fool in front of him, let alone an emotional one. true, if she didn't speak up she would probably lose him forever, but if she did speak...than she would look lovey and icky. wasn't that the life she wanted? to be his faithful mate, an "icky" fawn in the field full of buck? strange terms to use, true, but they were not false.

Seance padded after him, not planning to let him escape. "how can you leave like this?" she asked, hurt. this was pure nonsense. "i just opened up to you, told you that i loved you, and your going to leave?" tears fell freely from her emerald depths.

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T A G: winterfrost
N O T E S: sucky, sorry.
C R E D I T: Bphoenix of BLANKPAGES

[*{ william]

*{ winter f r o s t }*
*{ can seance's cause frosts?

he looked at her over his shoulder as she followed him, her words echoing blindly around in his head. "this isn't my choice." he mutterred. if it wasn't his than whos was it? that's what she would ask next, he knew that, he feared that. she was a curious girl, he knew, she would forever dwell in the childish lands of curiousity and questions.

seance - his life, his love, the bearer of his heart - here pleading with him to stay. a thing which offerred him some level of sick satisfaction. he knew that she would want him to stay, he knew she would want him here with her forever. after all, isn't that what mates are for? to be together forever and ever? he let a smile pass over his features.

this was the life he had always wanted. her, him, perfection. he was at ease around her and he knew that was something that would never fade, never die in time, and never dissolve into hate like some realationships did. even when she was with lucien he was the one she came crying to, the one she complained to, and finally the one she ended up with.

he had won. the everlasting battle between them. she had admitted her love first and now he could leave and live the rest of his life in peace. peace, with the exception of an empty heart and an agonized soul. and than again, he could stay with her, have a life of excitement, a life of meaning. he would have a place besides just being winterfrost - warrior of windclan.

"seance," he said in an airy voice. "i love you too much. i'm a danger to you and those around you." he explained. was he really leaving to protect her...or himself? maybe deep down he didn't want to be this in love with the child, maybe somewhere deep down HE was afraid of what would happen. he was afraid of rejection, even a rejection that could never exist between them.

*{ winter f r o s t }*
*{ yes, i'd say they can.

NOTes: twas fine.
FORMATcredit: william archer
TAg: seance